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Things are Changing

I wouldn't blame any of you if you never visited my site again. My life has been turned around and things have been hectic. As a result, I haven't been posting. The previous job I spoke of in my last post let me go after a week. It was a very good position, but they just didn't need anyone for a long time. They called me back today because their receptionist called in sick, so, that is where I am right now. I am used to being a receptionist. *sardonic grin*

I have good news though. Yesterday, I signed myself up for school. I am now a college student. On the 29th, I will be going in for my financial aid appointment. After all that is settled, I start school on February 20th. YAY!! Whenever I would think about college, I wanted to study english, or art, or even mathematics, but now I am want more practical applications of what I might learn. So I signed up for Business Administration/ Accounting. When I get my degree I can do anything from being a bookkeeper, to payroll, to being a manager. The possibilities are endless.

When I was with my husband, I wanted to go back to school, but he would give his objections, and I felt like I couldn't do it. Now, there are no excuses, and no barriers to what I can do.

Wings

There is a freedom that is slowly sinking in. I never thought that I would feel this way. I can get a new job, I can get a boyfriend, I can even go out dancing if I wanted to. It feels wonderful.

Sometimes, when I am alone at night, this freedom is cold. There is no one to hold me, and no one to tell me things will be okay. That's when I wish I could be safe again in the "marriage" I had with my husband. I was unhappy with him and there were millions of problems, but there was always a security that he would always be there.